Many things can plant a seed in our minds, and that seed can grow and fester. If you use any social media, you will see others living the best versions of their lives or the appearance of such, and you will think why can’t that be me. We hang out with family and friends with certain expectations, and they are never met. We compare our selves to others and think we are not where we want to be in life or feel we should look better. We talk to others who believe differently them (then) us, and we think this can’t be real that people think this way or at least That’s (don’t capitalize) my perception.
I care about my mental well being because I am terrified of being eaten away from the inside out from my thoughts. Some take their own lives to escape the pain of one’s thoughts. A few years back, I talked to someone about my unwell thoughts. Not of ending my own life but the feeling of being lonely and I believed it was something I was doing to cause it. I came to learn a simple fact that I already knew to be true. A large part of our lives can’t be controlled or how others act. The only thing I can control is how I embrace what happens and how I deal with it.
Once that was pointed out to me, it changed my life for the better. Everyone is different and will learn different things if they seek out help. Sometimes we can’t deal with our thoughts, and we should seek advice, and there is nothing wrong with that. We all need help lifting heavy objects, tune-ups on a car, or to figure out how something works that is new to us. It’s better to get help than facing a problem alone without the correct tools or the knowledge to fix the problem. The mind can become a scary place if it is left unchecked, and can become dark without us knowing how bad it is.
If you or anyone you do know is having suicidal thoughts, please reach out to the Colorado helpline at 1-844-493-8255.